homesick

This morning, as I was wandering around Miraflores looking for a place to study and grab a warm drink, I decided to wander into Starbucks. I had yet to go into a Starbucks in Lima before today, but that white mocha was calling my name. After ordering that, I found a place to sit down and read. About an hour in a became ridiculously overwhelmed with homesickness. I have been feeling homesick for the past week and a half but this morning just intensified everything. It was hard. And it still is hard.

The starbucks was filled with gringos. Makes sense. Gringos speaking english. And the place was playing typical starbucks music. you know what music I'm talking about, right? Starbucks music. Those soft and calming yet funky tunes. All in english. It felt just like I was at the starbucks at UT. It was all way too familiar. (Except for that fact that my white mocha was waaayyyy too sweet, tsk tsk)

I miss home. I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss my dogs. I miss my car. I miss the overbearing hot Texas sun. I miss having an extreme sense of belonging somewhere. I miss having a conversation with someone without fear of not being able to communicate well. I miss english. I miss you.
The strange thing is that there are only ten days between me and home, but for some reason it feels like forever. I have so much to do between now and then...final project, final exam, blogs to write for class...but I have no motivation to do it. I keep getting flashbacks of moments from home.

So yeah, I'm officially homesick. Took awhile to get here, but it's finally here.

It's not that I'm sick of Lima, cause I know I'll fall in love with Lima again, and my life here, and all that I'm learning and becoming. But right now all i want is home.

Dang you, Starbucks.